If you’re feeling out of control and unlike yourself, the reason could be due to stress.
Stress could explain the feeling of overwhelm, inability to think straight and that sense of helplessness to do something about it.
To be able to surround yourself with people who uplift and inspire you is an amazing experience. The buzz you get when you're in a room of like-minded individuals, sharing inspiring ideas and experiences is electric. Not the homogenous, maintain the status quo kind, but the kind that share similar dreams and visions of what's possible.
I've had some amazing experiences like that, and have traveled the world in search of them and to connect with people who share that same drive and passion. It's what has reignited my inner fire and given me the drive to leave my corporate career and create my own path.